Funny how life stacks the odds against you sometimes, or that is what it feels like. I tried to start at a gym and my knee threw a spanner in the works. Said knee has now added another spanner with a cortisone injection this afternoon, which my rhuematologist tells me will amp up my BG levels for a day or two. Still if it helps with the pain then it is worth it.
I do need to take some responsibility here too though, I can not blame it on the Universe, well of course I can and do, but I have a hand in all things and am not a puppet. My problem is, well possibly is, that I have always put everyone else first. So it was easy to fall into the 'I'll look after myself later' philosophy. Nobody made me do it, it seems to be just who I am.
So I stuck my head in the sand about many things, but mainly the diabetes. As I have said before I knew it was coming, the clock was ticking so loudly that it was deafening - I just put in ear plugs!
I am not throwing a pity party here, I am just being honest. I need to face up and accept some blame, become pro-active in fixing what I can (and hopefully slowling this disease down just a little).
I need to give up my soft drink of choice - Coke, and I mostly have, even when my hubby (and my son in law) keep buying it - killing me with kindness it seems. I haven't had any for ages and then had a small can on the plane over to Adelaide and a small one on the way back. God, I enjoyed it so much, but I stopped at one, so some will power. But I am worried about summer. I love a tall, ice cold Coke in a glass with ice (or two or three glasses) on a really hot day. It refreshes me, I prefer it over all other soft drinks, and don't even talk about the diet or zero version .. they are not the same no matter what the advertising tells you.
So I am looking at trying to substitute iced T2 teas as an alternative, wish me luck on that one.
My other big failing is chocolate and Smiths chips ... not all the time, like the Coke, but enough to be a big temptation, especially if I need comfort food. I am thinking of celery sticks, raw broccoli and lots of fruit as a substitute this summer. With maybe the littlest bit of chocolate on those really bad days, which thankfully are not that often.
Today has been a dark side of the moon day, going back to work with this much pain gave me a very short fuse. Hopefully two days off work with my knee elevated will turn the tide slowly back to a bright and shiny Lightness of Being.
Thanks for popping by xxx